"If Jesus gives us a task or assigns us to a difficult season, every ounce of our experience is meant for our instruction and completion if only we'll let Him finish the work. I fear, however, that we are so attention-deficit that we settle for bearable when beauty is just around the corner."
— Beth Moore
The last few days have been thought filled. The kind of thoughts that snow ball more thoughts and end up bringing you to so many conclusions and realizations that you're left overwhelmed and exhausted. Its a good place to be at the end of it, when you can kind of make a little sense of it all... and here is some of the sense I made:
Life is hard. Its overwhelming and its beautiful. Its filled with so many moments that are so hard to push through and it's offset by all the little beautiful moments that make it all worthwhile. Its a struggle to live selflessly... to get that bottle at 2 am for your screaming baby after you work, have clients, clean and make dinner... when all you want to do is sleep.
I worked the coffee shop after hours the other night for a bible study group, and in listening to Pastor Jim (of who knows what church), i realized that i am the same stupid Israelite that is whining in the desert after being rescued from slavery in Egypt. God parts waters for me. He destroys armies of men for me. He provides what i need. He displays his provision and love for me day after day... and i look back at slavery longingly because "at least i knew what to expect everyday". I struggle with the same tendency the Israelite's did also when they took more manna than they could eat (which led to the manna spoiling) instead of just trusting that God would take care of them the next day and the days to come.
I listen to a lot of people spill their guts out to me while working at the coffee shop about the complications and hardships going on in their lives (baristas are kind of like bar tenders that way, and its one thing i have learned to absolutely love about the job description). One common theme that i see is the issue of money. Just in a few instances in my personal life lately i have learned to hate the stuff also. It makes life harder. It hurts and ruins relationships, it destroys whole communities, governments etc... Even the best of men fall prey to its sticky little green fingers. Through their stories, i learn a little more about how i want to live my life and what i choose everyday to make important in it. I don't want to live my life for money. Im tired of stressing about it, im tired of seeing my husband and my family stress about it. Im tired of seeing the world hurt for it. So im going to start changing my focus. I'm going to start living the beautiful, crazy, unexpectable life that God has for me right now and work to see money as just a means to an end... not the end all be all, or the thing i work my life away to obtain... because even though me and the rest of Americas lives would be a lot easier with it... Gods obviously has got it worked out a different way. I'm going to start trusting him to bring my manna a day at a time, even if it doesn't seem like much, or isn't something that i can forecast for days to come.
So i know life is hard... hang in there. Breathe. Remember that oppression and self pity are dangerous webs we weave. "Poor me" leads to never rising above and realizing that the beauty that God intends for us is just around the corner. Reassess, change your focus... and trust him!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
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Thursday, September 23, 2010
"For man, autumn is a time of harvest, of gathering together. For nature, it is a time of sowing, of scattering abroad." - Edwin Way Teale
This collage i made explains my love for fall!
I love the decorations: here are a few cute ones to get you started cute yarn fall wreath, fabric leaves, fabric leaf pillow
throw a wine and cheese party! suggestions here
mmm pomegranates!! beautiful for decorating and eating... get a delicious recipe here
apple cider: emeril's apple cider with rum recipe here,
smores: Cosi restaurant offers a little smores kit if you want a cute date idea
pumpkin spice lattes: yes i work at a coffee shop and technically i could have these year round... but i always wait till fall to order my first pumpkin spice latte of the year!
and i saved the best for last...
"When the bold branches bid farewell to rainbow leaves - Welcome wool sweaters."- B. Cybrill
I was inspired by a tortilla crusted chicken dish on my recent cruise to mexico and this is my best attempt to duplicate it!
|half a bag of tortilla chips|
|4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts (you can beat them or cut them in half thin-wise)|
|1 cup milk|
|1/2 cup butter|
|2 cups shredded Monterey Jack cheese|
|1/2 cup sour cream|
|1.||Pre-heat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degress C).|
|2.||Start by crushing tortilla chips until they are fine like breadcumbs. (Place in a bag and use a rolling pin... or jump on em ha).|
|3.||Coat chicken in milk, then egg.|
|4.||Place chicken breast in tortilla crumbs and coat thoroughly. Place in a non stick pan, cover with foil.|
|5.||Bake for 30 minutes; remove foil and bake for an additional 15 minutes uncovered.|
|6.||10 minutes before to chicken being done, melt butter in a saucepan over medium heat. Reduce heat to medium-low, and stir in shredded cheese until melted. Mix in sour cream (you could add jalepeno and corn too) and cook, stirring occasionally just until heated through. Do not allow to boil.|
|7.||Remove chicken from oven.|
|8.||Top with cheese sauce or use as a dipping sauce.|
I served it with some beans and rice... excellent!
This little lady bug costume is an adorable, EASY way to dress up your little ones. This simple lady bug is comfortable and innexpensive... Dont spend 30+ dollars on a flashy overdone costume at a store... improvise and have fun with your little one!! Get instructions to make this little bug here
Friday, September 17, 2010
|I got a cute ring from san fran, made from an antique fork bent around a turquoise stone. I love it. Here are some others i've had my eyes on...|
|rings (clockwise from top left), rettore at barneys, zulasurfing at etsynektar de stagni at marissa collection, zulasurfing at artfire|
- wire cuff (mine is from an antique store)
- 15-20 pcs (1/2″-1″) pyrite
- aleenes jewel-it glue (the best)
- a few toothpicks, and paper plates for glue
begin by placing 1-3 rocks, starting with your larger (and favorite) stones in the center, working towards smaller at the ends. arrange to fit like a puzzle. glue the back and sides, and allow to dry overnight. repeat. i leaned mine against a basket to dry, standing up. mine took about 5 nights total, with a few stones placed each night.
Friday, September 10, 2010
While in San Francisco, ive of course gone into most every store off market st... Crate and Barrel included. Well here is a cute little store called cb2 (Crate and Barrel 2). Its got a little more of a retro feel, i love it... enjoy!
This Wagon Wheel Mirror is a cute, rugged idea to deepen your space!
LOOVEE these Knitted Poufs. Cute, and good for extra seating in a pinch!
This Marimba rug is just one of pretty much all of the rugs i like at cb2
Ive been seeing tons of these wire racks around too...
And here is a link for all of their table top decor- its all so amazing!